My eyes are open now.

I see that I have let myself be influenced so easily because I was weak. I did not have a strong goal or a clear enough direction and so let myself be steered to fit somebody else's ideals. It was my fault. I kept compromising who I was.. who I am. It's become clearer and clearer and I need to find who I am again. I recently started suspecting and it became definitively clear when, after completing the Jung Personality test, I found that even my personality, the thing which defines who one is had changed. The ENTP who I was so proud to be associated with turned into an ESFP..... and the E was very weak..

I have changed. I don't know what happened to that enthusiastic, bubbly, intelligent, self assured, fun loving, spontaneous, free spirited girl. I miss her. I want her back.

My eyes are open now. I know what I want and I know how to get there.